:') Painful but Its Okay

                         Everyone has their own types of illness or pain , and so do I. 

Those days, I barely even sick. I only got fever once in a year. I was proud of my immune system because it can tolerate such thing very well. But later on, I was tested with other type of illness. I dont know if it can be classified as illness / diseases but one thing Im sure is its too much of a pain for me when it occured.
         It is called periodpain. Well dont meh at my story yet. Some people might think that periodpain doesnt even hurt much for them. Well it does hurt real bad for me. To the extent that I will cry, I'll have cold sweat all over my body and Ill be whimpering for hours and hours. Usually the pain would be lasting for approx 5hours. Imagine bearing the pain for such a long period. Truly hurts me so much.
        Every month Ill have to face the music even how much I hated it. Even how much I try to bear it, to overcome it , it will all just be a failure. Ill always end up crying. I had been facing this since I was 12 and Im quite amazed that it had occured to me for almost 7years :') I tried okay, I tried so many methods to overcome the pain. Ive been taking painkillers,wear heat pack and would drink hot chocolate to make me sleep to forget the pain.
        During the unbearable moments of overcoming this pain, Im glad I have my parents. They were and will always be supportive and understanding of me and my pain. When I first had periodpains, it was so unbearable and I would woke my parents up because I truly cant handle it all alone. I wanted something , anything to make the pain go away. Right at the moment ayah would drive me to the hospital which was at the wee hours . I was so dehydrated and weak so I was detained for a few hours :')
        During the 2nd trip at the hospital, I was injected at the lower part of my waist. I dont know what it is but it did made me felt sleepy and I slept once I got home. There was one time when I ate 6 painkillers but the pain still wouldnt go away. I had to be taken to the hospital and got my urine checked. I thought it would go away when I get older but it didnt....yet. Mum once had taken me to a specialist to check whats f wrong with me but the doctor said she couldnt do any test on me yet since im not married yet. So all I had to do is take other alternative other than taking painkillers since it might harm me in some sort of way. (Well lately i did suffer from pain around my back waist . I dont know if its related to the effects from the painkillers or not).Since then I had been using hot pack, taking painkillers and drinking hot chocolate to ease the pain and make me sleep so all the pain would go away.
         So what I want to wrote down here in this blog is, Im so grateful to have my parents during my weak,unbearable moments and when I get older and have my own family, I wouldnt forget or ignore my parents. Ill take care of them during their fragile moment of life with love and Ill buy them the things they ever wanted but couldnt afford in life. Some people might think Im making such a big deal over a trivial stomachache but you wouldnt know how hurtful it is until you face it by yourself. Painkillers are now felt like my lifesaver and I couldnt go through my pain without it :'))