Let me dream

I dont get it why some people like to destroy other's dream. Let people dream. Your action only made it worse. Only made them question themselves at night when they are about to sleep. Insecure about their own capabilities. You may be more clever and have more opportunities to be what you dream to be. And if you passed upon someone who has the same dream as you,you shouldnt belittle them no matter how less clever-er they are compared to you.

I met lots of people who always says I cant do certain things.

They only know what I wanted them to see.

I know Im not as clever as you

But I know Ive been trying hard to achieve my dream

And I know I have passion for it

You,being such a lowly brat advicing me to not be what I dream of

Only made me lose respect for you

When I was in primary school, I was still not sure of what I want to be in my future

When I enter secondary school, I know I love certain things but Im still not quiet sure

Later on when I was studying for my foundation , I know I wanted to be a doctor

I have passion for it. 

But I dont know why my own friend would try to put my dreams away.

When I got my degree result, I was a bit devastated.

But I believe in Allah's plan.

My mum on the other side couldnt really accept the fact so she tried to seek advice from her friends.

So one of her particular friend has a son. Her son is a doctor and he didnt agree on the fact that I wanted to be a doctor.

I know guys, its hard to be one. It need enormous struggle and mental strength to be one. 

But you could have been more nicer. But well Ill try take it in a positive way. Maybe im not meant to be one. You and a friend of mine who got admitted to enter medical school can go and study medicine all the hell you guys what. But one certain thing, even if Im all smiley and showng happy faces in front of you, deep inside I still remember what you did.

There is one person who wanted me to meet him because he wanted to lecture me about how difficult his life and his struggle to be a doctor is.

I remember it vividly " If you study yr foundation and felt like your brain is about to burst and only got 3.7 cgpa u better dont go for medicine"

My heart totally breaks that time. I was like : why people are still doubting me. Maybe Iam not meant to go for med studies but you could motivate me to something else. Atleast that made me felt better eventho I know you dont agree me going for med.

The same particular person once told me when I was 12 and was about to take UPSR. She said to my mum "selalunya anak seterusnya ikut result anak 1st"

I was like WTF THIS AUNTY SO BITCHY. My sister only got 1A or something for UPSR. And she wants to say I would have the same result. 

I was so angry and proved her wrong.

And I will prove her that she was all wrong about me and she shouldnt be so judgmental and stop braging about her kids. I know her kids are all so genius but that doesnt give her the permission to talk bad about me and my sisters.